Saturday, July 16, 2011
Depressed and contemplating my relationship can you help me?
I was supposed to see my boyfriend when I got off the overnight shift at my job. But my Mom told me I couldn't because we got into an argument. I won't be able to see him for a few days and I'm upset because I miss him so much. When I work overnight shifts my boyfriend typically is a chatter box and we chat threw texts the entire night. This night however his texts were very dry and rare making me over analyze and question everything because I'm a worry wart. He is a big gamer and apparently is in a party role playing game with a lot of his friends and I can see why that's distracting but seriously? You would rather play your video games all night them comfort me? He warned me early on that he was a big game nerd and I'm seeing that now more then ever. He has no job because he likes to focus all his attention on his studies which is fantastic because he gets straight A's but that means he has to take out school loans to live off of. He is 28 years old and lives with his parents. I'm 20 and I have two jobs. I defend him all the time when my Mom asks how he pays for school and his expenses saying he wants to focus on school he's getting two bachelors degrees in a year! But now I'm wondering where this is going to lead. At his age you would expect him to be settling down in a career and having kids or married. Those are things I want when I graduate in 2 years but will he ever be at that point? Am i crazy to be with someone 8 years older than I who doesn't have a job? Gosh I love him so much and he treats me really good and is one smart guy but I really wish he would get a job and graduate. I don't want to work either I'd love to take out loans but you have to pay those off. Ideally I'd love to get married after I graduate and to live on my own he doesn't even know if these two bachelors degrees are something he wants to use! Now he is contemplating a music degree! Is he just staying in school and being indecisive so he doesn't have to take responsibility? But he is a really responsible guy! I don't get it I just don't and I'm sitting here at work upset because I miss him and I'm thinking these things and it sucks he is too busy playing games to talk to me.
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